Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts


Deep inside burried was a sorrow of mine
Not even the medicine couldnt treat it fine
Been to the finest doctors in town
But surgery was the only option they have known

25 days of hell they said in advance
Pleaded to everyone but there is not a chance
Seeing my parents cry for me was the scene now
Now i feel somethings cant be made with millions of dough

God why have you choosen me for this?
because i wanted to be in peace?
Take my soul rather than this month of hell
Im not ready for this. Better take me as well

Been three months already and still a month more?
My studies, my future all are broken down four..
And now another month of intense pain?
Trust me im more ready to lay lame

Tears come as I write these lines
Not in agony but in fear thats extended miles...

P.s : with pain power zillion
        Needed some prayers :(

To my love...

It's been wonderfulnthroughout my life. I have got everything that I liked most of them rebeled. But there lies one thing that I have never got. No one could even help me getting it....

For that most special lady out there...
Most beautiful one that dragged me the entire life...

          This blog belongs to you. This entire work... every single letter just mean you. You know? The day I was getting tattoed I literally made up my mind... I just not love but live for you. And eery single time the needle peirced, it was just you on my mind. Thats very weird to say even I had girl friends althrough this period, everyone knew that you were my first preference and they were next. I liked you that way. I respect you, and thats the reason why I even stayed away from you. Even now! I wanna give away all my courage to come before you. But I dont dare... because I want all my 10 years of wait to be ended in a beautiful saga and Im not in a position to accept the bitter truth. As you said, I will one day speak to your mom about us. Trust me! And I always even knew that you faked that you had someone. And you accepted it. I will come please TRUST me!

P.S :- I love you


The ultimate breath...

Some times you may never know how much you missed your life doing useless things...
It's just the Death that is unalterable and only thing on the planet that can be bought with out money

P.S :- My first fishing experience

Hidden meaning

In the lands of blue and red and voilet I lie
With my eyes open so red, In happiness I cry
Laughing like a kid, in the snow so white
I set my limits and here!, I start my flight

Like the smoke from the burning plants from lands up high
Up in the clouds I could'nt see any thing, but I still fly
As I breath in clouds, the air so pure
In the lands of heaven, this made my lungs cure

Like the acid on litmus, from blue to red
Sweet in the water, my stomach got fed
Drenched in happiness, my smile never ended
25 to life, it is what all I always wanted

P.s : most of the people will understand... what I meant ;)

The beat #HaikuHighTimes

As the beat dropped
Heart beat raised
Springed like a kid, I jumped

Life is music. Blue sometimes, beat sometimes
#Haiku #DigitalArt

P.s : digital art dedicated to all the dj's who drops the beat suddenly..

A Balcony

As you see you find everything weird
People, trees and buildings all around
Its like a mothers womb, I see
Fall down... and you cry in pain
You cry.. and you'll be saved by the doctor
It heals in time... but as times pass by, you can see the scars
You laugh.. only because you're alive
You silent? Youre dead

The other time when I was sitting in my balcony and seeing all the busy world around me, I felt that mother's womb is the only safe place on the planet with no worries and tensions


Who am I?!

As I changed hands, you were destined to be born
As you passed away, I made your doom
Days you worked hard for me, I lived near your heart
Days you slept lazy, from your life I went apart
Made you cry when i'm lost
And smile when i'm found in the frost
In my dreams you spent a lot
Without me you cant even depart
For your love, love me too than it does to you
Your dad earns you that it belongs to you
A day without me can make you frown
And the day with me can take you to throne

P.S :- who am I.... any guess...
          Yea, money.

Nothing is there wihout money...
People say "smile costs nothing" its not true...
You were here on this planet because your parents paid money to the doctor. :)

I FlY...

Looking down in amazement I see
From up the edge of the cliff I set myself free
I jump like a grasshoper in to the endless sea
With my wings wide open from now I be me

Up in the clouds up so high
Like a shooting star here I fly
With my tail as a rudder
To the left in the ocean so far
And the endless winds that roar

To the future that I see
I fly to the land thats unseen
To find a new identity called me
Peace, love and affection is what I need

In the summer I fly like a blaze
And the rains wet like a drizzle
Snow make me white like a flake
spring gave me hope for the new

There were empires under me as I look down
Filled with the trees so lush green
Soon I enter the land of un known
And here I proclaim im the king of my own

P.S : a small attempt

The regret...

Linked like a chain, my life is
So hard that I couldnt bear this
Not a single day I can say I lived
Not a single moment I can say I was dead

Fought my battle of life like a soilder
Built my house of heart like a labour
But as it was told nothing lasts forever
I lay down with everything with my arms open wider

Scars remind me that I have a past to remember
To my destiny here by I want to surender
Thought I would shape my future
But the but my past keeps on running like a hunter

Clouded was my life like storm in hunger
Struck was my life in web of a spider
Harder I try more I loose
Deeper the thought more I ooze

Controlling my tears from the past 20years
Cant any more so crying like a looser
The more I push the more I got pulled
The more I tried the more it hurted

Left everything to the destiny I lay
With this broken heart now I pray
From now atleast il do what I say
Trust me my life il make you proud I say

nature91 :- Candle light......(day#55 of 91)

Candle light.... ( my tribute to my heroes)
Candle is the symbol of may things....
One lights a candle for christmas
And others lit it when death calls us....

On a romantic night with your loved ones
Or a symbol of light in the darkness

A candle is the one which helps us to show world our feeling.....

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Resolution :- 314dpi(horizontal) / 314dpi(vertical)

P.S :- Post posted under Nature 91

22 days... edge of beark up... and whispers of love made us live together.... It's "US"


Yesterday i.e., 28th nov, 2011 was the 22nd day of my relationship... and it's the most wonderful night I've ever experienced as a teen with his girl friend on phone...

The reality went like this...

day before yesterday we had a really long night together texting on phone and slept at 4am i guess...
We were normal till the afternoon... she texted "am having luch now break.. did you have?"
I said "Am shopping with cousin and had some chicken"
I got no reply...

In the evening something suddenly went on my mind and all of a while she suddenly said "catcha after a while"

I was literally to say PISSED OFF...!!

Then after an hour she texted me back saying "sorry :( mom was on phone :("
I was so mad(went nuts) that i texted her "call or catch me after every thing gets over. may be we can talk tomorrow or day after, good night"

She texted me back saying "what can i do if dad was on phone with mom?"
I said her "ok listen am not pissed off... am sick, am damn busy. i'll catcha tomorrow. good night. love you(i didn't feel anything while i wrote the above love you. am sorry)"

After 10 minutes i got a text... "you didn't feel what?"

In the mean time i scolded myself for short temper.. wept a while and to forget i made a cut on my palm... it started bleeding...

I replied her "wait a min. hand is bleeding. feeling vertigo"

I really felt loosing her at that instant... i loved her so much and am so stupid to get such angry for such small issue....

Then i called her... she was like crying... i said "am realy sorry for what had happened... and for the 1st time on phone with lottza guts i whispered I LOVE YOU... she said "Po da"(which meant get lost) i again said her sorry and then she said ok.. we'll text... let's not talk now

She texted me back "listen it's just 22nd day of our relationship and you were angry on me? we still have 3000days to get together.. are you sure you can make up with me? im sure i can give up frank. can you?"

we got together really well... and finally it's 12am.. everyone is sleeping in our both the places...
she sleeps with her mom and i sleep alone in my room... so i got some privacy to whisper something.. rather than talking....

She texted me "hey i'll call you and i wont speak... please sing a song for me"
I said i can just whisper...she was like "ok.. whisper i love you... i will call"

Frankly i thought Jeez... what the hell is wrong with us...!! we are alright now...

She called me... i said "i love you"
... then she whispered slowly "say some thing.."
i said "i love you" again...
then she asked me to kiss her through the phone...
i said ok and kissed my phone...
she laughed and said "po da" again...!!
Then she said "love you too..." in such a sweet voice that tears rolled out of my eyes
i said "fuck you" to my self in a low voice and disconnected the call...
and then we texted for some time

She said me that " your voice is ...y"(guess you people know that word :p :p :p)
I said "thank you and your 'love you too...' made my day :p"

We again called and dared whispering on phone...!! we don't know what we spoke... because we spoke something that only love knows...

I love you kutty... i'll never leave you and make you cry...! muahh muuahhh.....!

P.S :- this is just a beginning... I'll let you know what ever happens in my relationship my blog...!! because after my girl friend i love you so much...! :p

My love....

Who are you?
How will you be?

Every night in my dream you make me see
You’re beautiful eyes and that honey dew lips
But never show your beautiful face intact and free
I know you’ll some day
But when and how? Is it going to be my last day?

Want you here right now before me
Your beautiful hair with curls like whirls
With those eyes bright like the blue skies
Holding my hands tight and soft
And you’re voice like a morning breeze
So cool touching my heart
I feel like melting butter

It’s very sad when I think of you
Because I’m missing every moment without you
My bed is lost in sleep and I’m feeling insomniac
Seeing the seasons pass by from past 3years

Am still waiting for you
Searching in every possible way
On the planet and in eternal dreams that I dream
Even in the silence just to here your voice
I stand still here now and forever…

nature91 :- A honey bee....!(day#46 of 91)

A honey bee....!
Honey bee are a subset of bees in the family of Apis
These are only one among 20,000 species of bees known to the human beings...

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Depth :- 24bit

P.S :- Post posted under Nature 91

nature91 :- Maa...(day#45 of 91)


I got no words to explain mother's love...
Because it's infinite, it's in-numerous, it's ever lasting...
And it's  inexpressible...

I want to post it under nature 91 because mother's love cannot be compared just like nature....

I used my Xperia @ 5mp mode to click this image...

P.S :- Post posted under nature 91

nature91 :- Dried leaves II(day#41 of 91)

Dried leaves

this picture says us that "As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly, when they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky. So up to the house-top the coursers they flew, with the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too." --Clement Clark Moore

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ISO Speed :- ISO 3200
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F-Stop :- f/3.1
Resolution :- 480dpi(horizontal) / 480dpi(vertical)

P.S :- Post posted under Nature 91

nature91 :- Boulevard of broken dreams(day#40 of 91)

The boulevard where I walk everyday.....

When i feel alone my shadow is there for me on road
When i feel happy the black road says me to be careful
When i feel sad the white arks show that there is some peace even in pitch black...

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F-Stop :- f/3
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ISO speed :- ISO 80
Exposure bias :- 0 step
Max aperture :- 3.15
Color representation :- sRGB
Resolution :- 180dpi(horizontal) / 180dpi(vertical)

P.S :- Post posted under Nature 91

nature91 :- macro of unfocused dry leaves(day#39 of 91)

Macro of unfocused Dried leaves....

Parameters :-
Camera :- Canon E1000d
F-Length :- 6mm
Max aperture :- 3.26
ISO Speed :- ISO 3200
Exposure Time :- 1/40sec
Color representation :- sRGB
F-Stop :- f/3.1
Resolution :- 480dpi(horizontal) / 480dpi(vertical)

P.S :- Post posted under Nature 91

I give up......

Oh baby am so sorry for what i've done
It's hell without you and am already in
Is the infatuation that played with my brain?
Or your dreams that i'm lost in

Are you the one which i saw you in that mall
In the hall and on my bed sitting on my couch?
It's so annoying that i should now i should stand still
On my own with out your support , On the wall of the angel's hell

Deep below buried in me
is the land of agony
which is now bursting out, in the form of tears
And Loneliness reigns by royal decree.

Am now without an answer, no not even a clue
Should i wait or wake from this dream of you
This is a torment that i cant fight anymore
My tears were out and i can't cry anymore

I thought you would be with me
Till the end of the sun and moon's light in the night
But i came to know that it's just a dream in twilight
That can never ever be cherished even though i fight

Arts degree is for people who wish to live their own life…

Guys now a day’s people’s way of thinking have changed drastically. Even the parents now a day are just forcing their kids to join either in engineering stream or medicine stream.
                     Well particularly in my state Andhra Pradesh where education has become a business here. They just force a kid of 11th standard to study for nearly 13hours a day in college without any extracurricular activities. Which I think is too insane. But what all they need is marks. Well even an average guy like me can score 100% marks if he is made to study in the way he likes.
                       Listen guys’ studying is important. But I say studying the subject a student likes is very much important. And “RANKS ARE NOTHING BUT NUMBERS, BUT TALENT IS THE ONE THAT EARN YOU THAT NUMBERS”
                        And who the hell said that “arts is for dummies”. For those who think like that I’m saying that “arts is for people those who wish to live their own life”. And “engineering and medicine are the subjects for money bugs!”
                     See even the great scientists at the end write their own book called “auto-biography” which is an art not science. And the books you are reading are also a form of art and the machines that engineering students use also 1st came from artwork and designing…
                      Am not criticizing the people who studied engineering because I myself is a student of engineering. But the way of thinking in this country should change. Here everyone thinks of money fame and luxuries. And they think only way is doing a professional degree…! Isn’t it insane?
                         Even most of our parents have done their mainstream degree in arts they don’t wish their child to read arts. Why?. It’s not the problem in some families. But many of them wish their child to become either an engineer or doctor. Are they the only professions that can earn money?. I say NO.
                              You know guys in my state alone there are nearly 800 engineering colleges and 100 medical colleges. Why does the government and even the private sector start colleges for only engineering? Why can’t they open colleges for arts, architecture, literature, pure and applied subjects and other courses?
                            The reason is only one. Parents here wish their son to become either engineer or doctor right from their early childhood. And even the kid even though after some period of time likes another subject he is getting forced to join in an engg or medical college.
                         I myself want to become a photographer right from 15. I applied for MIT, JJ and HALLMARK. But I can’t go there now only reason my parents don’t like me becoming a photographer… the reason might be simple guys but the impact on me was terrible. I’m now getting good grades but there is a place in me for photography. Like that I know many people are suffering around the world.
                      Only way to get out of this depression is just do what your parents say else explain them the subject you like and please them.
Don’t study for earning, study for a better living.

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